I accept that my lateness is a chronic disease which will probably progress over time. Or, I could say that when you’re booked and busy (lol), your focus is narrow and so, most things are often (innocently) neglected - my blog lol. Now you know why my posts are rare! With that being said, cues 22 by Taylor Swift your girl made another trip around the Sun.
Twenty-one was an eye opener. It was filled with lessons; much needed ones that really allowed me to step up and put on my big girl pants. No more victim mode and feeling sorry for myself but rather being accountable for my own life. It made me wiser! Something I prayed heavily for; however, not in the way I expected it to be but that’s life.
Months prior to my birthday, I felt so many changes occurring at my core. I wasn’t sure what I was experiencing but I definitely knew God was up to something. I didn’t even question it. I just trusted Him. And I mean really really trusted Him. Almost like surrendering to the bullshit that was coming at me because I knew He had me. It wasn’t easy. Situations I held onto had to be released in order to make room for new seasons. Experiencing the toughest of times all to manifest the strength I didn’t know I had and understanding that most things in this life are temporary: people, seasons and moments.
With time, it gets easier. You relax and trust that what’s meant to be will be. And let me tell you, your perspective will shift. The way you react to life will change. People will leave simply because you have outgrown past situations and behaviors. They will not always be understanding of what you are experiencing. And most importantly, it will be OKAY! You will be okay. Life will be okay.
I believe my biggest lesson was: release. To let go and no longer force what I knew was not meant to be here with me. I couldn’t make people understand me and I let go of that need to. It’s been liberating.
For my twenty second year, I want to continue growing and creating the person I believe in deeply. No more making excuses or delaying myself. And definitely, no more holding on. Life is rewarding when you travel lightly - no extra baggage. As Mama Badu says, “All you must hold onto is you…..one day, all them bags gone get in your way. So pack light!”
What I asked for this time around is joy and peace. Nothing more, nothing less.